the taciturn sessions

by neil elliott beisson

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neil elliott beisson tried for a while to be an artist, writing poetry, trying to accompany himself on beatbox, bass and guitar by using a loop pedal.
Those recordings were rescued from an external hard drive: he documented his own musical and poetic endeavors for rehearsing purposes before eventually turning his back on art and disappearing. Please excuse the poor quality of the recordings and the out of tune notes. neil elliott beisson also used to draw and his works can be seen on an Issuu page: issuu.com/neilelliott
He tried from his High School years until 2012 to "make it", before eventually dropping off the grid.
www.youtube.com/user/neilelliottbeisson/videos?view=1&flow=grid
All the material displayed on this Youtube channel, Soundcloud stream and Issuu page is of his composition and is copyrighted.

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released January 1, 2012

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Track Name: on the right track
We're so full of
Quixotic paradoxes
Fooling ourselves into believing
Our crusades could act as examples

Those moral codes and values
We can't stick to despite ourselves
Slowed by the melancholy
The dourness of lonely endeavours

We might be
On the right track
Now that we've found some power
In stitching words together

We've learned how to raise
Worlds and shapes around us
Bathe in handmade parts of us
And be reborn in simple things

Not ever letting your world
Dive its crooked claws into our skin
Focused on crafting and turning
Our extensions into a maze

We might be
On the right track
Now that we've found some power
In stitching words together

And yes we feel safer in autumn
With the flamboyant trees
Reigning over buildings
Without ceilings

We like it when our breath paints
The cold air in white
And we're okay with sinking now
That we've put those words down

We might be
On the right track
Now that we've found some power
In stitching words together
Track Name: something is missing
Lyrics

The day is done
Feet sweep the pavement

Finding their way down the noisy streets
Back to their cocoons

And while everyone shies away
From the darkest corners of the

City

We keep tumbling down (something is missing)
Our mind's slippery walls (something is missing)
Until you dig us up (something is missing)
Until you pull us up (something is missing)

Nothing will testify against it
Not even our wrinkling skin

Our faces keep on shrinking
Bitten by time

And as we walk by the blind men
Playing with numbers on bank accounts

We keep wondering
What keeps them going

We keep tumbling down (something is missing)
Our mind's slippery walls (something is missing)
Until you dig us up (something is missing)
Until you pull us up (something is missing)

Very few people would be whatever they say
Some lie, some just don't know themselves

And we find ourselves questioning
Every word we thought would fit us

Waiting for revelations and resolutions
Plucking strings for solutions

We keep tumbling down (something is missing)
Our mind's slippery walls (something is missing)
Until you dig us up (something is missing)
Until you pull us up (something is missing)
Track Name: song to keep the devil out
Lyrics

We wrote this song to keep the devil out
We don't need his help to spoil our sanctuary
A troubled mind will do a better job
To fuck up all the things
We managed to build

We wrote this song to keep the devil out
Yet we can still feel his anger boiling up inside
Of all the things we could have been
We've become a man rotten with insecurities

We wrote this song to keep the devil out
But this sanctuary is now shrinking down
The world outside just weights too heavy on its walls
Against our fragile values and weak certainties

We wrote this song to keep the devil out
Yet our childhood had sown the seeds of fears
We hoped we could be someone's brightest moon
But all moons have dark sides
Wish we could've hidden ours

We wrote this song to keep the devil out
And here's the proof this shit won't work
The pictures on our walls make weird faces
Despising us completely
For being weak sometimes
Track Name: threats
Arrange our rags
A little better
To keep appearances safe

A jacket
Too large for our own shoulders
Expectations way too high for ourselves

We see threats everywhere
A competition we can't afford to lose
Against anything better than us

But we keep letting ourselves down
Unable to meet objectives
Tied to the ground unable to rise

We're so angry all the time
And you get to feel it too
But it's not against you, darling

So please do take it out on us
Hold it against us
Cause it's not the way things are supposed to happen

So please do take it out on us
Hold it against us
Cause it's not the way things were supposed to happen

We see threats everywhere
And we can't afford to lose
Against anything
Anything
Track Name: the wanderer
All our life
In a shoebox
Ready to pack and leave
As soon as you said so

But the world outside
Kept roaring
All engines out
Trying to make its way inside

Bonfires of false needs

You took the turn
Into the next street and disappeared
Away from the wanderer
Away from your prison days

We wanted you
They tore us open

Into bottomless pits

Exhaled fears into us
And we fell to them

But it was worth it

You took the turn
Into the next street and disappeared
Away from the wanderer
Away from your prison days

Regrets in the throat
Nostalgia soaking lungs

There’s no heaven
To be found in us

No fertile ground to receive
Seeds from out there

From lifting heavy shoulders the back gets sore
We’re sore children
You took the turn
Into the next street and disappeared
Away from the wanderer
Away from your prison days
Track Name: the moth
It all happened under our eyes
With the snowflakes on our eyelashes
The naked branches were trying to rip the sky
All grey, without a noise, without a sun

They had nicknamed us the moth since we were little
Living in the dark yet reaching for light
An omen carrier up to no good
Leaving witnesses to hesitant interpretations

And we would feed on your dreams
Cause we couldn't remember our own
They were probably right to loath even looking at us
Sometimes hatred is a salutary thing

We're all fool dudes with foul souls anyways
Spending most of our thinking
On finding excuses, excuses
To cowardly back our decisions

And as we head oblivious straight towards
The gallows amidst the meadows
With a broken glass voice inside
Screaming in horror

Yet unheard by men
Deaf with convictions
Unheard by men
Deaf with convictions
Track Name: glass dome
We wanted to rule as kings
Over the perfection of your realm
Wanted to hide it from the world
Behind our stormy clouds

So no one, no one would ever dare
Tainting it one way or another

We didn't go for smoke
Didn't fall for the jewels
And when they realize they were wrong
They'll come for you too

So please stay hidden
Please stay hidden

We'd get you a glass dome with a view
Over a world partying down into pieces
And we'd keep working on matching your fantasies
Cause it's not right to trap, not even under a glass dome

We wanted to feel unique
But we'd walk into so many like us
Our last hope to feel special
Was through your eyes

This song won't erase our behaviours
The words and wraths of a jealous man